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Across the Fence:  Going for it all...  |
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catscharm74
True Blue Farmgirl
4687 Posts
Heather
Texas
USA
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 Posted - Oct 16 2008 : 09:22:30 AM
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I feel as though I first must thank you all for your support during such a trying and transitioning time for me (us).
We (hubby and I) have decided to focus on our goals, our dreams, make them a reality. We are selling anything and everything that is not directly related to where we want to go with our lives. We have made the connetion with what has been holding us back and decided we can no longer let that control us. We were able to chat by cell phone this past weekend now that he is on his way home from deployment and we agreed that it is now or never and that only good things are headed our way.
Stuff is stuff, people are people and we can do without certain things or certain people. It means putting an end to the old, welcoming the new and starting fresh.
We have decided to sell over 75% of what we currently own. We have a few more moves in us before we FINALLY settle and want to make life as easy as possible. This cleaning tornado has really stripped me down and forced me to look at where and who I am right now and where and who I want to be down the road. The "stuff" was a mishmosh of what others felt they wanted me to be or thought I was and I realized I had emotionally and mentally moved on but not physically. This cleansing goes way deeper than just getting organized and cleaning the house. While it looks like our house has been robbed, it is breathtakingly simple and beautiful everytime I walk through that door and I love it.
I am so close to getting my Bachelor's and hubby only has 8 months left before he as his Masters. For a long time, I have dreamed of being "someone", as defined by me, in the business world. I dream of going to college and getting my degree's and marching out into that world to stake my claim. I can say with pride I served my country and now I can serve myself by becoming the woman I know I am. I know I can make the positive changes and affect the lives of those who I am lucky enough to be put in charge of, whether their boss, provider, Mother and wife, I am a strong, smart, savvy, understanding, shoot from the hip woman and I am ready to step up to the next rung on the ladder of life. I want it all- I want the corner office and the great staff, all working towards a common goal. That means sacrificing now but in some ways, I don't see this is a sacrafice at all. I have watched too many people in my life lose their dreams because they were held back by things, people or even feelings like fear, inadequacy, or what other have TOLD them they are, when they are not. They have watched life pass them by and now hold onto regret and anger and even more fear as they walk down the path of life, resistant and bitter. I DO NOT want to be that person and I will fight like the dickens not to be. Scott wants to be an officer and rise through the ranks, giving people the chances he didn't have and treating them with respect and harboring good feelings among his workers that he feels is so lacking today. His dream has always been the military and I cannot take that from him. I will support him as he supports me and we will go forward together.
I have finally reasoned that it is ok to be selfish, want more, drive faster and farther up the career and family path in life and do it without seeming self centered or arrogant. I finally learned that it is OK -just remembering where I came from and take care of those along the way and treat them with respect. It's ok to have financial, career, health or family goals that may seem over the top, crazy but they are mine and I own them and I am the driver of my future. You must understand, I grew up feeling that even asking for something was putting someone out and now I realized how much I missed becasue I was afraid- of asking, of success, of people knowing who I am and what I stand for. NO MORE FEAR!!! 
I feel like we are on the verge of something wonderful in our lives and I just wanted to share with all ya'll because without you, I would have not made it. Seriously, things were VERY bleak for so long and now, I can finally breathe, smile and enjoy each day and life a little more. So thank you all. Farmgirls Rocks (((HUGS))
I will forever being the farmgirl/beach bum with a few business suits and flip flops and heels in her closet. I can finally say I like her and that is the biggest change of all.
Heather
Yee-Haw, I am a cowgirl!!!
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ruralfarmgirl
True Blue Farmgirl
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Rene'
Prosser
WA
USA
4309 Posts |
Posted - Oct 16 2008 : 10:42:49 AM
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Heather,
So thrilled for you.. being the best you is truly the only thing you can be.. Go for it!
Rene~Prosser Farmgirl #185
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Bellepepper
True Blue Farmgirl
1207 Posts
Belle
Coffeyville
KS
USA
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Posted - Oct 16 2008 : 11:05:53 AM
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| Heather, Good for you!! You have more wisdom than most of us. "Thank you", and Tell Hubby "Thanks" from all of us! |
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catscharm74
True Blue Farmgirl
4687 Posts
Heather
Texas
USA
4687 Posts |
Posted - Oct 16 2008 : 11:10:03 AM
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Ah Belle, it ain't wisdom. It comes from year of letting everyone else run my life and knock me down. I just stood up and stopped the madness. : )
Heather
Yee-Haw, I am a cowgirl!!!
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Alee
True Blue Farmgirl
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Alee
Worland
Wy
USA
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Across the Fence: Going for it all... |
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Going for it all...
